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⭐️倒序记录open

《权力的游戏》 2018/6-2018/8
《冰与火之歌》 2018-
《维斯特洛往事》2018/11-
《A Game of Thrones》2018/9/14（2019/1）
《A Clash of Kings》2018/11/22
《Finding Your Roots-S05E01》PBS 2019/2/13
《Ender's Saga:Ender's Game》2019/6/22
《Ender's Saga:Speaker for the Dead》2019/7
《Bridge To Terabithia》2019/8-（？这本书我还看不看了？）

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2019/11/10
提利昂！！今天！！一个也喜欢着你的男孩子送了我一个蒜头王八！！
所以我今天要吹他！！总是带着喵弧一样的微笑！！还总是低着头不跟人视线接触的腼腆男孩！！
这样。
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2019/10/30
“你买的啥啊权游九大家族——”
“对对对你猜你猜”
“肯定兰尼斯特，你太好猜了”
“对对对你猜对了”
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2019/10/21
“瑟曦和英格瑞斯不能比，英格瑞斯带脑子的。”
“……”
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2019/10/1
我对兰尼斯特家的喜欢仿佛是以提利昂为中心扩散的爱。
预设在人类心底的感情共通得好美好，越了解越会控制不住爱，对憎恨的人，对厌恶的人，甚至是敌人。当真的钻进那个人的皮肤，见他所见思他所想，会爱上。
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2019/9/30
冷静回想权游s8的詹姆人设首尾吻合，假设这位角色不用走救赎重生线，中期抹光空白了来看，抹了詹美人线，一定抹光来看，那他对瑟曦的始终一人的不伦之恋简直空前绝后的——不过如此(发出了柠檬音)。
但要是加上了中期吭哧慢慢走在救赎之旅上，再看s8末尾。是崩了。全部垮掉的那种崩。真的崩了。但是双生设定同时出世，直到生死相随，也有一种难以言说的美感。知你淤泥毒物也愿在生死关头义无反顾一步踏空拥抱你随你一起堕入地狱。——不过如此(柠檬音) 。
剧版詹姆结局真的，美人与瑟曦二选一，天堂地狱二选一，救赎净化与陪葬炼狱二选一，是著作人设买下了这精彩绝伦的展开。
这么一看s8也不是不能接受——不行👋替詹姆替美人不值。要怪就怪瑟曦承担了全剧黑点。
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我对詹姆兰尼斯特角色印象的高光之处明明在“当时詹姆只是笑问谁敢拦”，瑟曦轻飘飘的那句话中的詹姆太帅了，在我心里帅得甚至要排在他为美人断手之前。我却会为他选择瑟曦而感到不值，妈蛋真的不值。结局我呸。
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《A Game of Thrones》

Stretching on her toes to reach his lips, she kissed the knight gently and said, ''You are the first of my Queensguard. ''

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《A Clash of Kings》

She whispered her names to her pillow, and when she was done she added, ''Valar morgulis. '' in a small soft voice, wondering what it meant.

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《Finding Your Roots》S05E01

“We didn't go down to the Jersey Shore for vacation like other people did. Maybe we got to Staten Island zoo like once a year. Like once a year. even though I could see it, I could see it from my living room windows. uhm there were freeies that what to and fro, I could see the Bayonne Bridge. But we never went there. But I was reading comic books and I was reading books. and that's how I... I got outside of the five blocks I lived in, in Bayonne. I couldn't go to Staten Island because it was too far away but I could go to mars. I could go to middle earth, i could go to all these incredible places Gotham City and metropolis, so... yeah a kid who lived very much in my imagination.”

“He did well, I mean, I never met Elizabeth so I don't know anything about her. but uh my grandma Grace was a... was a wonderful woman.  she was always warm and loving and kindly.”

“He's bald here and I remember him being bald when he was throwing me in the air.”

-I wish some of the people involved were still alive so I could ask them the story about this. I've often thought of writing a book about that house. I haven't told half the stories of some of the people who lived there at various points.
-that book just got more complicated.
-yes

“I was such a mongrel from the beginning that I had friends who were all Irish, all Italian, who had that strong identity. But I always knew, I was, I was not as Irish as the Irish kids. I was not as Italian as the Italian kids, evidently not at all. I just  thought of myself in science-fiction terms as a human being and that's still how I identify with myself. hopefully the whole race will get there one of these days and we'll stop being so frightened about people who were born in a different part of the planet or descended from a different part of the planet.”

You know what coolest thing is? All these people were lost. and they'll never be lost again.

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ENDER'S SAGA:ENDER'S GAME

INTRODUCTION
Human beings may be miserable specimens,  in the main,  but we can learn,  and,  through learning,  become decent people.

Never in my entire childhood did I feel like a child.  I felt like a person all along-- the same person that I am today.  I never felt that I spoke childishly.  I never felt that my emotions and desired were somehow less real than adult emotions and desires.

This is the essence of the transaction between storyteller and audience.

1.THIRD
"He's too malleable. Too willing to submerge himself in someone else's will. "

I have to win this now,  and for all time,  or I'll fight it every day and it will get worse and worse.

Ender leaned his head against the wall of the corridor and cried until the bus came.  I am just like Peter.  Take my monitor away,  and I am just like Peter.

2.PETER
But this isn't how it feels to be a bigger, thought Ender. They don't wear this face like a mask, it is their face. On their home worlds,  do the bugges put on human masks,  and play? And what do they call us? Slimies, because we're so soft and oily compared to them?

Peter walked to the bed,  and sure enough,  he did not lift himself up his bed. Instead he came and stood by Ender's head.
But he did not reach for a pillow to smother Ender. He did not have a weapon.
He whispered, "Ender, I'm sorry,  I'm sorry, I know how it feels, I'm sorry, I'm your brother, I love you. "
A long time later, Peter's even breathing said that he was asleep. Ender peeled the bandaid from his neck. And for the second time that day he cried.

3.GRAFF
"The sister is our weak link. He really loves her. "

He didn't know what to say, and he was afraid to reveal himself to be any more monstrous than his actions had made him out to be. I'll take it, whatever the punishment is,  he thought. Let's get it over with.

"Knocking him down won the first fight. I wanted to win all the next ones,  too. So they'd leave me alone. " Ender couldn't help it,  he was too afraid,  too ashamed of his own acts; though he tried not to,  he cried again. Ender did not like to cry and rarely did; now, in less than a day,  he had done it three times. And each time was worse. To cry in front of his mother and father and this military man, that was shameful.

"What would you have done if Andrew had killed him, given him a medal? "
"It isn't what he did,  Mrs. Wiggin. It's why. "

"For the two of you,  the choice was made when Ender was conceived. But for Ender,  the choice has not been made at all. "

Ender didn't like fighting. He didn't like Peter's kind,  the strong against the weak,  and he didn't like his own kind either,  the smart against the stupid.

"I'm afraid, "said Ender quietly. "Bit I'll go with you. "
"Tell me again. "said Graff.
"It's what I was born for,  isn't it? If I don't go, why am I alive? "
"Not good enough, "said Graff.
"I don't want to go, "said Ender, "but I will. "

***"You can change your mind. Up until the time you get in my car with me,  you can change your mind. "

Mother cried. Father held Ender tight. Peter shook his hand and said, "You lucky little pinheaded fart-eater. " Valentine kissed him and left her tears on his cheek.

***And as he got into the car that waited silently in the corridor,  he heard Valentine's anguished cry. "Come back to me! I love you forever! "

4.Launch
"He's even sweeter than he looks. "

The TV guy was letting him be the spokesman for all the boys,  though Ender was barely competent to speak for himself.  For the first time,  Ender felt like laughing. He smiled.

Will Valentine see me disappear into the shuttle? He thought of waving at her,  of running to the cametaman and saying, "Can I tell Valentine good-bye? "

I am not a killer, Ender said to himself over and over. I am not Peter.

***"I thought you were my friend. " Despite himself, Ender's voice trembled.

"We need a Napoleon. An Alexander. Except that Napoleon lost in the end, and Alexander flamed out and died young. We need a Juliud Caesar, except that he made himself dictator, and died for it. "

"Human beings are free except when humanity needs them. Maybe humanity needs you. To do something."

"Is that all? Just tools? "

***They stood in silence a while longer.
"Anderson, the kid's wrong. I am his friend. "
"I know. "
"He's clean. Right to the heart, he's good. "
"I've read the reports. "
"Anderson, think what we're going to do to him. "
Anderson was defiant. "We're going to make him the best military commander in history. "
"And then put the fate of the world on his shoulders. For his sake, I hope it isn't him. I do. "
"Cheer up. The buggers may kill us all before he graduates. "
Graff smiled. "You're right. I feel better already. "

5.GAME
"He can have friends. It's parents he can't have. "

It was a mistake to think of them. He felt a sob rise in his throat and swallowed it down; he could not see his plate.
Any sign of weakness would tell the Stilsons and Peters that this boy could be broken.

Start over again. All the doubling he could hold. The pain was gone. The tears were gone. He would not cry.

Then he could not help himself. His lips formed Valentine's name. He could hear her voice laughing in the distance, just down the Hall.

But his whisper was the whisper he used when he cried out in pain when Peter tormented him. The sound didn't travel farther than his own ears, and sometimes not that far.

Thank you for this,  Peter. For dry eyes and silent weeping. You taught me how to hide anything I felt.

6.THE GIANT'S DRINK
If he played with the ducks too long he turned into a fish, which he didn't like. Being a fish reminded him too much of being frozen in the battleroom.

I'm a murderer,  even when I play. Peter would be proud of me.

7.SALAMANDER
Alai suddenly kissed Ender on the cheek and whispered in his ear, "Salaam."
as once Ender's mother had done, when he was very young,  before they put the monitor in his neck, and she had put her hands on his head when she thought he was asleep, and prayed over him. Ender had never spoken of that to anyone, not even to Mother, but had kept it as a memory of loneliness,  of how his mother loved him when she thought that no one,  not even he, could see or hear.

As he thought of it, though, he could not imagine what "just living" might actually be. He had never done it in his life. But he wanted to do it anyway.

Ender studied Bonzo's formations like an enemy commander would, nothing ways to disrupt the formation.

Nobody talked about home, not among the soldiers; there had been no life before Battle School. Nobody got letters, and nobody wrote any. Everybody pretended that they didn't care.
But I do care,  thought Ender. The only reason I'm here is so that a bugger won't shoot out Valentine's eye,  won't blast her head open like the soldiers in the videos of the first battles with the buggers. Won't split her head with a beam so hot that her brain burst the skull and spill out like riding bread dough, the way it happens in my worst nightmares, in my worst nights, when I wake up trembling but silent, must keep silent or they'll heat that I miss my family, I want to go home.

8.RAT
"I thought that was why you were taking personal attack classes. "
"You've really been watching me, haven't you? "
Dink didn't answer.

***Dink turned his back on Ender, methodically took off his flash suit, and gently pushed off from the floor. He drifted slowly toward the center of the room, very slowly, his body relaxing almost completely, so that his hands and arms seemed to be caught by almost nonexistent air currents in the room.
After the speed and tension of practice, the exhaustion, the alertness, it was restful just to watch him drift. He did it for ten minutes or so before he reached another wall. Then he pushed off rather sharply, returned to his flash suit, and pulled it on.
"Come on, "he said to Ender.

"I can't believe you haven't seen through all this crap yet, Ender. But I guess you're young. These other armies, they aren't the enemy. It's the teachers, they're the enemy. They get us to fight each other,  to hate each other. The game is everything. Win win win. It amounts to nothing. We kill ourselves, go crazy trying to beat each other, and all the time the old bastards are watching us, studying us, discovering our weak points, deciding whether we're good enough or not. Well, good enough for what? I was six years old when they brought me here. What the hell did I know? They decided I was right for the program, but nobody ever asked me if the program was right for me. "

"I've got a pretty good idea what children are, and we're not children. Children can lose sometimes, and nobody cares. "
"The Battle School didn't create us, you know. The Battle School doesn't create anything. It just destroys. And we all remember things from home. Maybe not good things, but we remember.

"He's crazy. They're all crazy. "
"And you aren't? "
***"I be crazy too, little buddy, but at least when I be craziest, I be floating all alone in space and the crazy, she float out of me, she soak into the walls, and she don't come out till there be battles and little boys bump into the walls and squish out de crazy. "

I'm your man. I'm the bloody bastard you wanted when you had me spawned. I'm your tool, and what difference does it make if I hate the part of me that you most need? What difference does it make that when the little serpents killed me in the game, I agreed with them, and was glad.

9.LOCKE AND DEMOSTHENES
She scraped a patch of ground bare of pine needles and leaves, and there scratched his name in the dirt with a twig. Then she made a small teepee of twigs and needles and lit a small fire. It made smoke that interwove with the branches and needles of the pine overhead. All the way into space, she said silently. All the way to the Battle School.

He was in better control of himself than anyone she knew. Except perhaps herself.

She had wanted to believe she was good at persuading people because she was right, not because she was clever.

She could understand Peter well enough, could empathize with him enough to get inside him that way. There was more Peter in her than she could bear to admit, though sometimes she dated to think about it anyway.

She had never seen him speak with such sincerity. With no hint of mockery, no trace of a lie in his voice. He was getting better at this. Or maybe he was actually touching on the truth.

Feel sorry for yourself, Ender. He typed the words on his desk as he lay on his bunk. POOR ENDER. Then he laughed at himself and cleared away the words.

Despite all his successes in the Battle School. It was despair.

I know what you're thinking,  you bastard, you're thinking that I'm wrong, that Ender's like Peter. Well maybe I'm like Peter, but Ender isn't, he isn't at all, I used to tell him that when he cried, I told him that lots of times, you're not like Peter, you never like to hurt people, you're kind and good and not like Peter at all.

***He read four lines into in, then skipped to the end and read the signature. Then he went back to the beginning, and curled up on his bed to read the words over and over again.

Ender Wiggin crying? That was disturbing.

This time he caught it in his hands, knelt before it, and gently, so gently, brought the snake's gaping mouth to his lips.
And kissed.

And because of the tears, he didn't notice that every member of the multitude wore Peter's face. He only knew that wherever he went in this world, Valentine was with him.

"I sold my brother, "Valentine said, "and they paid me for it. "

10. DRAGON
"All you have to do to earn their respect now is be perfect."

No authority except excellence. Never had to give orders, just made suggestions. But that wouldn't work, not with an army.

What I've done to you this day, Bean. I've done. But I'll be watching you, more compassionately than you know, and when the time is right you'll find that I'm your friend, and you are the soldier you want to be.

When they had turned Valentine into a stranger, when they had used her as a tool to work on Ende, from that day forward they could never hurt him deep enough to make him cry again. Ender was certain of that.

11. VENI VIDI VICI
You don't play the fantasy game anymore, "he said.
Ender didn't answer.
"Tell me why you don't play it. "
"Because I won. "

12. BONZO
"When Ender Wiggin holds our fleets in his control, when he must make the decisions that bring us victory or destruction, will there be military police to come save him if things get out of hand? "

13. VALENTINE
Demothenes is definitely the girl, but Graff says the girl was rejected for Battle School because she was too pacific, too conciliatory, and above all, too empathic.

"He's the sanest person I know. He's sane enough to know that his parents are not particularly eager to reopen a book of affection that was closed quite tightly four years ago. "

Ender didn't wave when she walked down the hill toward him, didn't smile when she stepped onto the floating boat slip. But she knew that he was glad to see her, knew it because of the way his eyes never left her face.

"Peter's changed, "she said.
"Let's not talk about him, "said Ender.

"You're a Wiggin. "
"Whatever that means, "he said.
"It means that you are going to make difference in the world. "And she told him what she and Peter doing.
"How old is Peter, fourteen? Already planning to take over the world? "
"He thinks he's Alexander the Great. And why shouldn't he be? Why shouldn't you be, too? "
"We can't both be Alexander. "
"Two faces of the same coin. And I am the metal in between. "

"I dream I'm in the battleroom, only instead of being weightless, they're playing games with gravity. They keep changing its direction. So I never end up on the wall I launched for. I never end up where I meant to go. And I keep pleading with them just to let me get to the door, and they won't let me out, they keep sucking me back in. "
She heard the anger in his voice and assumed it was directed at her.

"I didn't want to see you. "
"They told me. "
"I was afraid that I'd still love you. "
"I hoped that you would. "
"My fear, your wish----both granted. "

"Every time, I've won because I could undetstand the way my enemy thought. From what they did. I could tell what they thought I was doing, how they wanted the battle to take shape. And I played off of that. I'm very good at that. Understanding how other people think. "
"The curse of Wiggin children. "She joked.

"In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him will enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. "

"See what I'm becoming, Val? "he said softly. "Even you are afraid of me. "And he touched her cheek so gently that she wanted to cry. Liked the touch of his soft baby hand when he was still an infant. She remembered that, the touch of his soft and innocent hand on her cheek.
"I'm not, "she said, and in that moment it was true.
"You should be. "

That is the Earth, he thought. Not a globe thousands of kilometers around, but a forest with a shinning lake, a house hidden at the crest of the hill, high in the trees, a grassy slope leading upward from the water, fish leaping and birds starting to take the bugs that lived at the border between water and sky. Earth was the constant noise of crickets and winds and birds. And the voice of one girl, who spoke to him out of his far-off childhood. The same voice that had once protected him from terror. The same voice that he would do anything to keep alive, even return to school, even leave Earth behind again for another four or forty or four thousand years. Even if she loved Peter more.
His eyes were closed, and he bad not made any sound but breathing.

Game or not, though, it might also be true. And so he won work as hard as possible. It was what Val had wanted of him.

14. ENDER'S TEACHER
"It wasn't unnecessary waste, "Ender said. "I can't battles if I'm so terrified of losing a ship that I never take any risks. "

Ender grabbed Mazer's uniform and hung onto it, pulling him down so they were face to face. "I didn't want to kill them all. I didn't want to kill anybody! I'm not a killer! You didnt want me, you bastards, you wanted Peter, but you made me do it, you tricked me into it! "He was crying. He was out of control.

"When I thought you were about to kill me, and I decided to kill you first. I guess I'm just a killer to the core. But I'd rather be alive than dead. "
They laughed and agreed with him. Then Ender began to cry and embraced Bean and Petra, who were closest. "I missed you, "he said. "I wanted to see you so bad. "

15. SPEAKER FOR THE DEAD
"Welcome to the human race. Nobody controls his own life, Ender. The best you can do is choose to fill the roles given you by good people, by people who loved you. "

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BRIDGE TO TERABITHIA

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He would like to show his drawings to his dad, but he didn't dare. When he was in first grade, he had hold his dad that he wanted to be an artist when he grew up. He'd thought his dad would be pleased. He wasn't. ''What are they teaching in that damn school?'' he had asked. ''Bunch of old ladies turning my only son into some kind of a ... '' He had stopped on the word, but Jess had gotten the message. It was one you didn't forget, even after four years.

It made Jess ache inside to watch his dad grab the little ones to his shoulder, or lean down and hug them. It seemed to him that he had been thought too big for that since the day he was born.

''Ain't 'cha gonna run?'' she asked.
''No, '' he said, shoving the sheet away. ''I'm gonna fly.''

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2018/4

我眼光有对准那就是觉得他可能会是我喜欢的角色，到最后成为全剧里最最喜欢的角色。

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2018/7

所以“而他只是笑问谁敢拦”这句我听来浪漫至极的话，是史坦尼斯攻打君临的黑水河战役王城里瑟曦对珊莎说的来着吗。

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2018/8

我是什么时候意识到自己喜欢小玫瑰的。

在她被抓进地牢里，那个竟然能让瑟后崩溃的地牢——重点是小玫瑰比瑟后早进地牢，而且小玫瑰比瑟后晚出地牢。

所有角色都以为小玫瑰最后也被洗脑了，可是我请求她不要。

最后她接受审判前紧紧握住荆棘女王的手，那张小玫瑰塞进荆棘女王掌心的——被捏皱的纸团——展开是家族图腾，这一刻跪在荆棘女王膝前与荆棘女王相视的小玫瑰，全 剧 最 耀 眼 。

小玫瑰啊，她生来适合政 局，她是绝境玫瑰，越残酷的境地，越是她绽放的舞台，她在“混乱”之中  清 醒 爆 了。

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2018/9/24

无意发现一段史诗级浪漫的文字。

“（前略）我还是很喜欢你，像骑士公主的歌谣，清梦而已。
（中略）我还是很喜欢你，像卡斯特梅的雨季，至死方离。
我还是很喜欢你，像高庭玫瑰的笑靥，生生不息。（后略）”

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2018/11/26

我说tyrion是金发异瞳诙谐幽默酷爱读书化智力值为幸运ex地将不可能化为可能又温柔有牵挂半生的挚爱尊重弱者而且言语行事的气场一米八的imp。

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2018/12/31

在这部作品的信仰中，打动我的既不是七神也不是旧神，而是淹神

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2019/1/2

真知先生问我淹神比较能打动我还是他比较能打动我

我藏起犹豫地回答他您是真知不必问我您应该知道我的答案

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2019/1/9

虽然看着大快人心(?)但我只是看着而已，因为我是看着

然后我说龙母不是想她哥哥死，我说龙母没有想要她哥哥死的意思

……

可是等等噢事实确实是死了。

她没有想让她哥哥死的意思可是她哥哥死了。

于是完了。这件事其实并不令人大快人心。

我接受批评“你若说得出事实那你为什么感觉到大快人心”

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2019/1/20

这该死的狮家令我欲恨不能，

狼家：置之死地而后生的星火燎原剧本

狮家：钱多不怕经得起高价补仓 吃几个跌停板也没事耐得起低价清仓 大不了血本无归谁怕谁

住手，我求求你们了，“这你们都能输”，“这你们都能输？”

除了输也真是输得漂亮我还能夸你们什么呢

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2019/1/21
你怎么可以说他，他有什么不好，你怎么这样贬他
你干什么这样说他，他可是整部冰火的主角，权利游戏主视角内部纷争，一直北境一回来就叫他们停战的雪诺又算什么主角、主视角维斯特洛大陆，一直身处维斯特洛大陆之外一回来就开战加大火势的龙母又算什么主角
是的我在生气 我在问你的是 你怎么可以那么说提利昂 他怎么了 你到底觉得他怎么了 我就说贯穿始终的提利昂是全剧男主角 我就问你怎么可以那么说他
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2019/1/22
你怎么可以顶着他的名字说出这种 怎么可以说出这种为人失格极致的话
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2019/1/23
冰火所写的人生，是人生，是主角一样地活，配角一样地死
我说马丁老爷您在致敬泽拉兹尼和死神
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2019/1/24
小恶魔halfman的设定——对啊这是给其他男角色的人气一条活路嘛
我会不会滤镜太强——不，其实我很恰当（喂
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2019/1/25
您弑父的污点
他没有杀你，你杀了他
怎么办
那我
那我用暂时性NGRI为您无罪辩护好了（喂
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2019/2/27
“这匹小马驹、这小孩子、嗯嗯多像提利昂啊”不假思索脱口这句话的我魔障了
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2019/3/21
如果提利昂君临天下
“打住这个不可能的假设吧我做梦都会笑醒”在你面前我双手合十，“我只求他别领便当鹅已……
还有球球他别再成为一个爱上龙母的男人了（诶”
已经被姑侄逼死的龙熊党快要窒息了
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2019/4/15
躺平！！！！！！
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2019/4/22
对对对珊莎给提利昂发好人卡叭（喂
不过席恩竟然
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2019/5/13
烂尾，再见
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2019/5/15
我都想押珊莎铁王座了www

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2019/6/9

我想海因莱因和奥森卡德对于“铁血”看法近乎对立的区别是亲历者与观察者的区别。
想奥森卡德还是一个躺床板上一边翻来覆去看阿西莫夫造的基地，一边构建自己世界的十六岁少年，此后余生里所著的一整套书是他对人类宏观命运和历史覆辙的幻想与思考，总体围绕着基于他那段年纪（以及往后）的感觉。他说“Human beings may be miserable specimens,  in the main,  but we can learn,  and,  through learning,  become decent people. ”
所以不会有“铁血浪漫”那种如果一步错接着义无反顾地步步错怀着一份“无比清醒地不愿自省”的热忱。因为他不会“困”在他自己的身份——亲历参与者和观察者的区别。
在他的笔下他能有推演中不惜一切的决断，但也有远观全局者的慈悲。脑海中的想象成了他能看见的事物，他的换位思考也体现在——和过去的他自己换位。超越时间与客体一样(能够看见“平等”)的想法——我觉得他这段话也能追溯出些原因：“Never in my entire childhood did I feel like a child.  I felt like a person all along-- the same person that I am today.  I never felt that I spoke childishly.  I never felt that my emotions and desired were somehow less real than adult emotions and desires. ”

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2019/6/16

维京家的哥哥姐姐有点可怕，瓦伦廷像是港湾又像是另一端的“控制”

以及彼得人物性格的魅力点出现了

瓦伦廷彼得联手天下无敌 这对兄妹真 适合搭档

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2019/6/22

这本书的总结………应该是………这样吧

2019/6/23

要我给这篇小说书名起个昵称就叫Pawn了。
先把那句主线担当的主力句“In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him will enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. ”先去掉。
讲的根本是一个"Welcome to the human race. Nobody controls his own life. The best you can do is choose to fill the roles given you by good people, by people who loved you. "的故事。

我还是觉得最后valentine离开peter的控制来找ender一起“流浪”像是，ender整个人就像是她的“作品”。不是说就完全没有姐弟情了，用ender说过的话来讲两面的矛盾“both granted”。
valentine的因为“too pacific, too conciliatory, too empathic”而被退学的人设反转在valentine挂上demosthenes的皮之后。<locke&demosthenes>之前她还是个全心全意(心无杂念) 挂念弟弟的天使姐姐人设，之后…比起“被peter'污染'”更像是“被peter'激发'”。peter看到valentine能把“wiggin's curse”的共情能力发挥在言语操纵上（这对可怕的兄妹）
加上…valentine那demosthenes的人设。valentine喜爱掌控力。和peter相反的她的控制方式特别“温柔”。
<valentine>章节更能看出valentine害怕失去对ender的控制。最后一次在地球上见面时valentine对ender说的：不管你如何选择我始终爱你。不过在对话开始前，她已经是披上了被colonel graff点破的demosthenes皮。
(和ender的交流一次比一次“工具人”，夸张来说除了加上童年暗语简直难以找到真情实感的那种(我说得夸张了抱歉)但事实上val知道她这么说他就会为她而战。
ender湖边那句“want Peter love him"的坦白绝对使valentine语塞到一个极点。ender从那时候开始说valentine不懂他，不过谈崩也没关系valentine还能用永远爱他来留住他的心(“喜闻乐见”成功了、不过唯一的不一定是在最后两人相拥时ender的心理)所有的一切不是为了你。——他这样的想法和之前(一直以来)他所有一切为她的想法矛盾（所以果然cocoon才是真女主吗(笑)
说起ender是个一直分裂在val&peter两极端之间“我只想做一个好人”的温柔人啊qwq
他最戳我的人设点在于他一直 最讨厌他自己。